WritingbyJordan

so far

nothing has been worse

nothing has been more confusing

…

this addddddiction

has taken a part of my mind

and taken a part of me

makes me do things I don’t want to do

but maybe I do

but no I don’t

but

but

but

it makes me full of excuses

makes me blame itself

myself

other people

other things

anything

a reason for the pain

insufferable

and it is both that

and the solution

and a fucking lier

it is a trick

that only exists in my mind

makes me prefer the way out

and though it tells me that I’m the problem

really

I’m just sick