WritingbyJordan

feels like my whole life is a trigger

the things most common and occurring

cause me the most pain

like I’ve let things build up to where I can’t tolerate any of it

like I’ve let it happen

like I’ve let it happen

like I let my mind become constantly in turmoil

with the things people do, things people say

I’ve spent too much time

fretting over my righteousness

to where it makes me want to die

sometimes I wish I had different friends

different everything

there are so many loopholes, pitfalls that I or something has created for me to enter a depressed state

that’s just how my brain currently works

I have an illness

I suppose

Nevertheless

what are you going to do about it

make friends with it

connect with it

stop being afraid and ashamed of who you are

if you want some new friends there mister complainer

why don’t you start with yourself

make friends with the darkness

you don’t have to let it run you

you are many parts

where the whole is greater than the sum

so that the other parts of you

can be friends with this big dark hole in

me

and maybe you can live with some

peace

but then…