It’s like there’s a cap on my brain
as if a stopper was put on and I’m full of pressure
like I’m an explosion
but the toxins are sweet
as they churn in my belly
waiting to roar
though I am immediately brought back to the room and out of my head
and the fact that I am alone tonight
in this room
your heart in my soul
the fact that I’m alone should not worry you
this is an important experience of life
this is a uniqueness all its own
very few, if any, experience what you do
this exposure to my soul
you are unique, in every way
you are loved
not by me, but by her
forever and ever
in this dream together
How can you understand
having never gone through
mind, body, emotion, and spirit
having never felt
it’s easy to see face
it’s hard to see you
to see truth
for that is all I really care for
it is the sweet and divine
it is the sweet red wine
it is the gravity of my soul
it is the strength to let go
as we all reap what we sow
as we all live and die
wondering the reasons why
why should you even try
because you can
you are able
experience all that you can
for that is all there really is
and skip the bloody bad ones
they’re loads of lies and shit
so love yourself and others
tree and mammal
honest and loving
easy and hard
who knows what cards you’ll be dealt
but it doesn’t matter
as long as it doesn’t make you sadder
as long as it is true
and hopefully, eventually, you will feel joy
and everything as it should be
this dream I have for you
of you
it is everything you could ever imagine
WritingbyJordan 